Truth

Hi Guys!

Have you ever felt complete when you were sad? Were you angry when someone made you smile when u were sad? Yeah I know this sounds crazy but I do feel so at times...

I have always put this in the back of my mind thinking it was due to my introverted nature maybe it is but there is a feeling in me that says "That isn't it!". I am supposedly a social introvert and maybe I had an Introvert Hangover(Yeah such a thing does exist) , but I have been constantly having such times where I am content being sad!

Maybe it is a mental condition but I am quite confident about my mental strength so the root cause is still unknown. Lemme tell you how I feel during such times if you do connect lemme know!!

There is this feeling of emptiness which is filled when I feel sad, it's like i wanna feel this way for some more time! It makes me complete! I want to keep feeling that miserable feeling but I don't want people's pity... I don't even want anyone to see me like that... My eyes may start watering and that is when I don't like it anymore... I keep a straight face when my tears fall and then they cease! That's when I start liking the misery again.. I don't feel pity on myself either but I feel like a full cup...

I can't really find a word to describe it but it's like fulfillment...

Thank you!